"I want hard stories, I demand them for myself. Hard stories are worth the difficulty. It seems to me the only way I have forgiven anything, understood anything, is through that process of opening up to my own terror and pain and reexamining it, re-creating it in the story, and making it something different, making it meaningful - even if the meaning is only in the act of the telling."
I have yet to learn to do this, but it's something I look forward to.
I know I owe my three readers an update on my goals and so forth; stay tuned...